Overcoming One Day At A Time

  As I was praying this morning, renewing my mind because the last thing I want to do is sit another day in the dang chair with an IV in my chest I just prayed for God to show me hope beyond what it is I see in the natural. Show me to see the future with rays of light even when my mind is saying theres no light at the end of the tunnel. So I wrote, God spoke to my spirit.... I share a bit of a journey here and there in hopes that God's strength is shown in our weakness. I never would have guessed 10 years ago that life would be where it is, perfectly imperfect in every way. Maybe you are there too asking God why is xyz happening? Why do some people get healed while some suffer for years causing them to run from God, lose their faith, and give up on the dreams birthed in their heart years ago? No  one wants to be in physical, emotional, or spiritual pain. No one. No matter how much they may say it, in the end we all want to be happy. Truth is happiness doesn't ...

Sometimes overwhelmed with labs, tests, surgeries, treatments etc I forget to focus on spending quality time with my little bits. I need to spend time with myself, still working on that. One of my pastors had challenged me this year to really focus on me and forget about pleasing and doing for everyone else. At first  I thought how selfish this sounded. However, as the months went on God spoke to my spirit about what it really meant. It meant to find value in ME. If I don't, then how can anyone else? If I see myself as broken then how can I help others? If I'm trying to please everyone else but I'm falling apart how is that healthy? I began the long slow journey of trying to find me....the new me...yes I have limitations and challenges and the whole nine. Yes my life revolves around yearning to be in church, but treatments and drs visits etc, have overwhelmed my life but WHO AM I? I am not the conditions that attack my body. My soul is so much more than that. My soul and s...