Overcoming One Day At A Time

When people who have absolutely NO clue what it's like to have NO family or help when you battle extreme and deadly circumstances seem to be the most judgmental when people ask for help, I have a big issue with this. God revealed to me again how I have wasted WAY too much time, energy, love, sacrifice, investing into the wrong type of people for many years. I am nothing but a loyal, giving, loving person because I know what it's like to be in need and not have anyone. I know what it's like to go through hell and wonder if God is real and if anyone cares. I know God is real because He always reveals truth in every circumstance. In every single circumstance God reveals truth, it just takes time. My biggest pet peeve in this life is when people talk about people behind their back. If you ever hear or you think you know a situation and you judge before actually sitting and speaking with that person then you are doing everyone a disservice. You ruin relationships current and fu...

Written October 13th 2016 Reflecting today... I am thankful God reveals to us his love in the small things. Yesterday I was prayed over for the umpteenth time. I thought to myself, for a moment, that this would be a waste of time for everyone. I really, very rarely cry, but I did the ugly cry in front of many people. One vision came to the pastor as he was praying. He described me laughing by the ocean, on the beach with a lab...  This increased my level of faith but made me cry more. You see I had a golden lab that I wanted to  go run on the beach with. We had to rehome him for multiple reasons, finance and health... but we still pray for him every day at bedtime and that was 5 years ago. There have been times when my heart has cried because all I wanted to do was run...Run on the beach with my dog and my kids. Running was my love when I was younger. It was the only time in my life I felt FREE. As I was remembering this dream my longing became stronger and my heart ...

Written October 13th Reflecting today... I am thankful God reveals to us his love in the small things. Yesterday I was prayed over for the umpteenth time. I thought to myself, for a moment, that this would be a waste of time for everyone. I really, very rarely cry, but I did the ugly cry in front of many people. One vision came to the pastor as he was praying. He described me laughing by the ocean, on the beach with a lab...  This increased my level of faith but made me cry more. You see I had a golden lab that I wanted to  go run on the beach with. We had to rehome him for multiple reasons, finance and health... but we still pray for him every day at bedtime and that was 5 years ago. There have been times when my heart has cried because all I wanted to do was run...Run on the beach with my dog and my kids. Running was my love when I was younger. It was the only time in my life I felt FREE. As I was remembering this dream my longing became stronger and my heart becam...

Halloween recently passed, during which I had been admitted in the hospital once again. This, unfortunately, has happened a lot more than I would ever thought it would but it reminded me of my favorite superheroes ....  Last year I was in the hospital at Christmas, both their birthdays and countless holidays, Easter, 4th of July were also days included in the all you can drink IV spa through the years. I have been fighting some kind of health battle since both my children were born. 2013-2014 I spent at least 5 days out of every month admitted in the hospital, and 2015 I spent most of January and Februrary fighting death's door in the hospital after severe complications from serious surgeries. The past 3 years my conditions got more and more serious and prognosis hasnt been favorable a lot of times. We dont listen to stats or any of that because only God knows how much time we have on this earth, no sense worrying about what little or how much time we have. My girls have been st...

A moment of clarity… I've made it and I GIVE UP I received the sweetest card the other day, thanking me for being an inspiration, and our whole family being a positive show of God’s love. It's been a long time since I feel like I've been able to write well thought out sentences, and put words into the feelings and emotions of daily life. I'm asked a lot “how I'm doing”, and most of the time I will respond with, “I'm still standing with God’s words that He is going to heal me”. Tonight I realized that God was speaking to my spirit. Sometimes I have to succumb to the fact that in some situations there just are NO words to explain. In these instances, a simple smile, hug, or laugh can transform a moment in time that would otherwise be too vast for human comprehension. I find that when I'm able to slow down enough God shows me a sign that He is watching, He loves me, and He cares. It's not always a big sign, sometimes it's the simple moments of...

Orig Written 2014 I'm having one of those days where I just long so hard to be healed and free of this pain for me and my family I would do anything to have this life be something of the past. I tell each joint over and over to work as they were made.  As I sat here crying I heard " You are my daughter and you are a warrior. I made you for so much more than this". I don't FEEL like a warrior today. As I look at my calendar full of penciled in appointments, lab draws, treatments, and future surgery I ask Him, "when is it going to  be over? Is my life always going to be like this? I've been doing this for years and there's more complications everyday. I'm tired of fighting". Being told that if the worst happens the people you trust most will not be there for support or help is heartbreaking. "Christina, I felt He whispered,  you are a warrior and not a worrier. Do not worry about the future or you will destroy your present. Choose to be a...

There are times in life when situations occur and we would rather die than have to face the reality of the present. I've had many times where the pain was so great that I did think I was going to die of a broken spirit and a broken heart. Looking back through those chapters, one I'm currently still fighting, I learned some valuable lessons. There is value in pain and heartache. It doesn't seem fair at all to suffer through watching love ones waste away, being abused, losing a child, or losing your own health while some seem to have life handed on a silver platter. Something I learned far early in life is that nothing in life is fair and having a pity party doesn't change that fact. So you have been hurt and the pain is so great that you cry out and wonder what the point of being here on this earth truly is. I have known great grief and loss and no its not fair, but I'm here to tell you that there is hope and happiness once you get past the initial stages of facin...

When we're in the midst of storms and battles, the challenges we face can seem to be so big and overwhelming. During those times it's helpful to remember WHO is beside you and WHO is for you. Remember all of God's miracles from the past and all of His promises. Your challenges will shrink in size as you compare them to God's power and glory and what He is able to do. Take a few moments out of your day and watch this video of Chris Tomlin's song, "Our God is Greater". It will help bring peace and calm as you remember that our God is greater than anything you are facing today.  https://www.youtube.com/ watch?v=Cb4o4lN0c_E  

Through the years I've had many people comment that I'm "lucky" to have such a great marriage. The thing is that luck has nothing to do with it. Good marriages take dedication and work, end of story. No one has a fairy tale marriage every day, despite the Instagram posts or Facebook posts that some envy. A picture is a one second blink of time that may be beautiful, but never tells the full story. A good marriage doesn't need to prove they have a good marriage by posting a picture of their spouse every hour etc. Social Media does not truly deposit into your marriage, although some love to show love in front of others, which is very sweet, it does take away from the meaning and genuineness of it if one is doing it every single day. Every marriage has different ups and downs.Through being on Marriage Builders team for 4 years I've met so many great and different couples. Each marriage has its set of unique challenges and history that has made or broke where the...

Dearest Moms, I want to write to you, it hurts my heart when I see status updates competing against each other. I get sad when I see people say things about, " well I have X amount of kids, dog, sickness etc so I have more room to complain about life, its OK for me but not for you". Why do people complain about things they once prayed for? Because they are taking it for granted. We all have days when we complain about our kids, but some people it's literally every 20 minutes, and I'm not exaggerating. When you want to complain about kids realize that there's women's wombs aching to be full of life. Some would do anything to have a child and have experienced loss beyond words. Its like a slap in the face. Or when someone complains about their husband, (we all goof around) but really stab at him many are praying for a man who will stand by them but some take it for granted. Yes, EVERY SINGLE mom has responsibilities,  food, laundry, dishes, kids that spill,...