You are not the scars that line you inside. God has a plan and a purpose for your life and If I can choose to be an overcomer so can you!
I wrote this a few years ago but it still rings true....
I got awoken from my sleep to write to you... I dont know who this is for but I want to slap you!! Now that I have your attention, I want to slap everyone who holds a cigarette to their mouth! I dont care who you are or how old you are or how long you have been smoking. My mom was only 47 when she was diagnosed with lung cancer. It starts on a cellular level to grow ten years prior to that. I want you to look at your kids, your bother, your sister and imagine them watching you helplessly on a ventilator fighting to survive. They stand there helpless while the drs come in and say they have done all they can do. The way you think your treatment will go, wont be that smooth. I want you to imagine your worst pain that you can imagine, being alive, somewhat awake but under enough that you cant speak. I want you to imagine your children praying and looking helpless deciding on if they should take you off the ventilator. “This wont happen to me”, you say. You will be different right? WRONG. Addictions are just that- addictions. A moment you decide to give into something and you get hooked on the feeling. You end up giving in selfishly to something that not only affects you but takes ahold of your kids and your family. “Oh well Im not an addict I could quit if I want”. Really?! Then why haven’t you?? If you knew there was a ticking time bomb inside of you wouldn’t you want to get it out? Well there is! Not only inside of you, but growing, oh and those precious kids of yours that you surround yourself with, they also will have life long ramifications to your selfish desires and lack of control. I grew up with every addiction known to man on BOTH sides, every side of my family. I've seen first hand the generational dysfunction get passed down from generation to generation like dominoes in the sand, sinking deeper and deeper as they fall. Ive seen what It does to families, to kids and its not pretty; not only smoking but drinking and other things as well. I CHOSE though as a child that I WOULD BREAK these chains that bind the generations before me. I dealt with my own demons but with Gods strength, and my determination I vowed many many years ago NEVER to be a victim of my circumstance. I don’t think it is ever ok to make excuses either to use your past hurt family, or your broken toe to feed yourself the lies that its ok to do these things Im only hurting myself. NO, you are affecting more lives than you will ever know. I CHOSE not to be a victim of my circumstances and you can too. Believe me I have been through more things than most people, let alone people my age, most things people will never go through. Im ok with that. I have chosen though not to let what has happened in my life define me. You are not the mistakes you have made. You are not the scars that line you inside. God has a plan and a purpose for your life and If I can choose to be an overcomer so can you! I have been in those dark moments of feeling alone and it is a hard place to be, and I don’t know everything you may be dealing with but I do know that God’s love can carry you. If you give your past, your hurt, and everything to Him you will soon see there is a future beyond you. You can do such great things for other people and encourage those in their dark spots, but instead of remembering your past, dream about your future, believe in the potential that you have and choose to overcome whatever bondages are holding you back at this very moment. I don’t know who exactly this was for, but I do believe its for someone very special. Sending love with this...
I got awoken from my sleep to write to you... I dont know who this is for but I want to slap you!! Now that I have your attention, I want to slap everyone who holds a cigarette to their mouth! I dont care who you are or how old you are or how long you have been smoking. My mom was only 47 when she was diagnosed with lung cancer. It starts on a cellular level to grow ten years prior to that. I want you to look at your kids, your bother, your sister and imagine them watching you helplessly on a ventilator fighting to survive. They stand there helpless while the drs come in and say they have done all they can do. The way you think your treatment will go, wont be that smooth. I want you to imagine your worst pain that you can imagine, being alive, somewhat awake but under enough that you cant speak. I want you to imagine your children praying and looking helpless deciding on if they should take you off the ventilator. “This wont happen to me”, you say. You will be different right? WRONG. Addictions are just that- addictions. A moment you decide to give into something and you get hooked on the feeling. You end up giving in selfishly to something that not only affects you but takes ahold of your kids and your family. “Oh well Im not an addict I could quit if I want”. Really?! Then why haven’t you?? If you knew there was a ticking time bomb inside of you wouldn’t you want to get it out? Well there is! Not only inside of you, but growing, oh and those precious kids of yours that you surround yourself with, they also will have life long ramifications to your selfish desires and lack of control. I grew up with every addiction known to man on BOTH sides, every side of my family. I've seen first hand the generational dysfunction get passed down from generation to generation like dominoes in the sand, sinking deeper and deeper as they fall. Ive seen what It does to families, to kids and its not pretty; not only smoking but drinking and other things as well. I CHOSE though as a child that I WOULD BREAK these chains that bind the generations before me. I dealt with my own demons but with Gods strength, and my determination I vowed many many years ago NEVER to be a victim of my circumstance. I don’t think it is ever ok to make excuses either to use your past hurt family, or your broken toe to feed yourself the lies that its ok to do these things Im only hurting myself. NO, you are affecting more lives than you will ever know. I CHOSE not to be a victim of my circumstances and you can too. Believe me I have been through more things than most people, let alone people my age, most things people will never go through. Im ok with that. I have chosen though not to let what has happened in my life define me. You are not the mistakes you have made. You are not the scars that line you inside. God has a plan and a purpose for your life and If I can choose to be an overcomer so can you! I have been in those dark moments of feeling alone and it is a hard place to be, and I don’t know everything you may be dealing with but I do know that God’s love can carry you. If you give your past, your hurt, and everything to Him you will soon see there is a future beyond you. You can do such great things for other people and encourage those in their dark spots, but instead of remembering your past, dream about your future, believe in the potential that you have and choose to overcome whatever bondages are holding you back at this very moment. I don’t know who exactly this was for, but I do believe its for someone very special. Sending love with this...
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