I am thankful that I awoke this morning to my kids fighting and a messy house
I wrote this in April but never got to post it. Hope it helps someone :)
Thoughts at treatment today, It's the cold, unending winter storm that strikes with unpredictability, but makes us appreciate the beautiful days so much more! Our faith is the same, I appreciate even the small blessings most people overlook. Just being able to be out of the hospital, when the sun starts poking through the clouds it gives hope and a peace that transcends all understanding. Last year at this very time I was in the hospital for 5 days right up until Easter. I was discharged with catheters in enormous pain etc from yet another surgery and complications. That time and time again has left me to rely solely on God for his help and healing. We still made it just in time for egg hunt at church, even though I was in no condition to be there my kids needed it and Jesus is the reason for the holiday after all. He rose again and so will I! I had to be in wheelchair and wore a big blanket trying to cover all the tubes, just as I've had to do numerous times since then and before then when my kidneys shut down in flare. Its the simple things that people take for granted, for instance being able to go to church and serve in church. Its an enormous privilege to be able to help others, to be able to serve in church, make your plans and choose what will I do today? As I leave my umpteenth (lost count)of infusion my flesh wants to cry, I just wish to be able to simply take my kids to the park. I could get easily discouraged at all the life I miss out on and get togethers that I don't get invited to anymore or I cant make it to because I'm too sick or don't have a ride. I could easily feel hurt but its only God who can be there to heal, mend, and supply that hope that I need. Thankfully its through going through these challenges for years I can have the empathy and grace needed to endure the long haul and love beyond measure of how much someone else values me. When I see others hurt I can be the one to really ask how they are and mean it. It doesn't mean that people's words and actions don't hurt, they do, but I have to choose to look beyond that which I cant fix and think of each small thing that may seem mundane to some but means the world to me. Still believing for that day where I can run again with my husband and girls and not have my whole schedule dictated every week full of appointments. Until that day comes I smile through it because I am thankful that I awoke this morning to my kids fighting and a messy house. While I didn't sleep much worrying about things out of my control, I awoke to them. I fight tooth and nail with every ounce of energy for my family.Although they were up before the sun and my husband not home I found solace in the fact that I could 1. HEAR them fighting, 2. they are healthy enough to fight, 3. I am there for them to hold when they cry and need a hug. There are so many things to be thankful for this day, so what are YOU most thankful for today? In the best times and the worst times we all have something to be thankful for.
Isaiah 40:31 - But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew [their] strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; [and] they shall walk, and not faint.
Thoughts at treatment today, It's the cold, unending winter storm that strikes with unpredictability, but makes us appreciate the beautiful days so much more! Our faith is the same, I appreciate even the small blessings most people overlook. Just being able to be out of the hospital, when the sun starts poking through the clouds it gives hope and a peace that transcends all understanding. Last year at this very time I was in the hospital for 5 days right up until Easter. I was discharged with catheters in enormous pain etc from yet another surgery and complications. That time and time again has left me to rely solely on God for his help and healing. We still made it just in time for egg hunt at church, even though I was in no condition to be there my kids needed it and Jesus is the reason for the holiday after all. He rose again and so will I! I had to be in wheelchair and wore a big blanket trying to cover all the tubes, just as I've had to do numerous times since then and before then when my kidneys shut down in flare. Its the simple things that people take for granted, for instance being able to go to church and serve in church. Its an enormous privilege to be able to help others, to be able to serve in church, make your plans and choose what will I do today? As I leave my umpteenth (lost count)of infusion my flesh wants to cry, I just wish to be able to simply take my kids to the park. I could get easily discouraged at all the life I miss out on and get togethers that I don't get invited to anymore or I cant make it to because I'm too sick or don't have a ride. I could easily feel hurt but its only God who can be there to heal, mend, and supply that hope that I need. Thankfully its through going through these challenges for years I can have the empathy and grace needed to endure the long haul and love beyond measure of how much someone else values me. When I see others hurt I can be the one to really ask how they are and mean it. It doesn't mean that people's words and actions don't hurt, they do, but I have to choose to look beyond that which I cant fix and think of each small thing that may seem mundane to some but means the world to me. Still believing for that day where I can run again with my husband and girls and not have my whole schedule dictated every week full of appointments. Until that day comes I smile through it because I am thankful that I awoke this morning to my kids fighting and a messy house. While I didn't sleep much worrying about things out of my control, I awoke to them. I fight tooth and nail with every ounce of energy for my family.Although they were up before the sun and my husband not home I found solace in the fact that I could 1. HEAR them fighting, 2. they are healthy enough to fight, 3. I am there for them to hold when they cry and need a hug. There are so many things to be thankful for this day, so what are YOU most thankful for today? In the best times and the worst times we all have something to be thankful for.
Isaiah 40:31 - But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew [their] strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; [and] they shall walk, and not faint.
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