There are times in life when situations occur and we would rather die than have to face the reality of the present. I've had many times where the pain was so great that I did think I was going to die of a broken spirit and a broken heart. Looking back through those chapters, one I'm currently still fighting, I learned some valuable lessons. There is value in pain and heartache. It doesn't seem fair at all to suffer through watching love ones waste away, being abused, losing a child, or losing your own health while some seem to have life handed on a silver platter. Something I learned far early in life is that nothing in life is fair and having a pity party doesn't change that fact.
So you have been hurt and the pain is so great that you cry out and wonder what the point of being here on this earth truly is. I have known great grief and loss and no its not fair, but I'm here to tell you that there is hope and happiness once you get past the initial stages of facing life after the bottom falls out.
From the time I was a child the bottom always fell out of situations. Life may be stable for a moment, but never stayed that way for very long. Before I knew I was on it, the roller coaster ride of life showed me time and time again that trusting my situation would never, ever make me happy. Some people grew up in great times and will say the opposite but for me I learned early on my situation doesn't dictate my happiness. I had to find and make my own happiness. My happiest moments in my life have truly been to hold my children. Every time I look into their faces I see God and his promises. I see the miracles I hoped, longed for, and fought for, that I was told would never happen. Being so close to mother's day I felt a pang of hurt of the reminder of past loss and accepting that I would not be one of the moms that birthed many children and had their own basketball team. I was gently reminded by God that I am so blessed to have two beautiful miracles and even though I longed for more I find solace in that fact. When we go through great loss and pain it is hard to see anything but the pain that threatens to suffocate the little breathe in our lungs. So hold onto your blessings, because we aren't guaranteed tomorrow and neither are our blessings!
So you have been hurt and the pain is so great that you cry out and wonder what the point of being here on this earth truly is. I have known great grief and loss and no its not fair, but I'm here to tell you that there is hope and happiness once you get past the initial stages of facing life after the bottom falls out.
From the time I was a child the bottom always fell out of situations. Life may be stable for a moment, but never stayed that way for very long. Before I knew I was on it, the roller coaster ride of life showed me time and time again that trusting my situation would never, ever make me happy. Some people grew up in great times and will say the opposite but for me I learned early on my situation doesn't dictate my happiness. I had to find and make my own happiness. My happiest moments in my life have truly been to hold my children. Every time I look into their faces I see God and his promises. I see the miracles I hoped, longed for, and fought for, that I was told would never happen. Being so close to mother's day I felt a pang of hurt of the reminder of past loss and accepting that I would not be one of the moms that birthed many children and had their own basketball team. I was gently reminded by God that I am so blessed to have two beautiful miracles and even though I longed for more I find solace in that fact. When we go through great loss and pain it is hard to see anything but the pain that threatens to suffocate the little breathe in our lungs. So hold onto your blessings, because we aren't guaranteed tomorrow and neither are our blessings!
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