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Written October 13th

 Reflecting today...

I am thankful God reveals to us his love in the small things. Yesterday I was prayed over for the umpteenth time. I thought to myself, for a moment, that this would be a waste of time for everyone. I really, very rarely cry, but I did the ugly cry in front of many people. One vision came to the pastor as he was praying. He described me laughing by the ocean, on the beach with a lab...

  This increased my level of faith but made me cry more. You see I had a golden lab that I wanted to go run on the beach with. We had to rehome him for multiple reasons, finance and health... but we still pray for him every day at bedtime and that was 5 years ago. There have been times when my heart has cried because all I wanted to do was run...Run on the beach with my dog and my kids. Running was my love when I was younger. It was the only time in my life I felt FREE. As I was remembering this dream my longing became stronger and my heart became full. I realized again yesterday how real God is, knowing that even without telling a soul he knew and saw my heart's desire. He reminded me to trust the process. Sometimes God heals all at once, Ive seen it happen! As Ps Kubala prayed over me I felt a warmth and a shock go through my entire body from the tips of my feet to the top of my head. 

Sometimes it's a daily reminder/challenge to see myself as He sees me, growing one day at a time. Currently sitting at my treatment thanking God for the process. Turning a caterpillar into a butterfly one day at a time. #overcomer

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